Helplesslylost, 37

intellectual soul mate i am lost as ----. i have searched and searched. i have been through many books and yet im still end up at square 1. i don't know what it is im lookin for and why i even search. i feel there is something higher or mayber there isn't about myself. i am aware of some things but don't know who to turn to for guidance. i am so alone in my search for truth and why i feel as though im the only one who questions anyhting in this world. help im lost